My Bloody Valentine Chapter 18

I ran out of there as soon as I could. I couldn’t bear to be near him a second longer. I told him I loved him, he told me he loved me. Now he hates me. I have to admit it I was him I would hate me too.
Well even more then I already do. I walked slowly up the winding stair well. If he hates me I have no point in living anymore.
I got to the top of the stairs and stopped. I walked into the first door on my right and grabbed some supplies. Those included a chair and a three foot rope. I walked back out and shut the door quietly behind me.
I walked to the very last door on the right and opened it. So many things happened in this room. It brought tears to my eyes when I thought of them.
Christian and I had our first date here. We were going to have a picnic but it started raining. We had our first kiss here. The first time we made love to each other we were in this room. I asked him to marry me. The day we, well he died. It’s really quiet romantic for me to die in here. Well in some crazy sadistic way but, that’s just me.
I tied the rope into a noose then hung it over one of the beams. Before I went any further I walked over to the side table by the bed and wrote a little note.
“Dear Ashley
I’m sorry for everything I have done to you. I did it out of love. I was blind before I met you. Those years spent cooped up here alone drove me quite mad. I just needed someone to love and someone to love me back. I truly am sorry for killing you mother. I am also sorry for being such a disgusting piece of selfish scum. I hope you can find someone to love you.
Yours Truly
Andrew Biersack”
I put the note beside the chair and climbed on top of it. I put the noose around my neck, tightened it and kicked the chair out from under me right as I heard the door open.